Sunday, May 5, 2013

Psychiatric Hospital Memories

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(NB This article is adapted from an article that appeared in Collectors Weekly about six months ago...I accidentally came across it and found it so thought provoking I had to share. I know these events happened years ago and things are different now, but many of us have memories of relatives who spent time in places like 'Willard'; and more importantly many of us have been through times when we could have ended up in similar situations if we'd been born a generation earlier. Thank you for taking the time to read this piece and to share your thoughts with me.)
 
If you were committed to a psychiatric institution, unsure if you’d ever return to the life you knew before, what would you take with you? That sobering question hovers like an apparition over each of the Willard Asylum suitcases. From the 1910s through the 1960s, many patients at the Willard Asylum for the Chronic Insane left suitcases behind when they passed away, with nobody to claim them. Upon the center’s closure in 1995, employees found hundreds of these time capsules stored in a locked attic. Working with the New York State Museum, former Willard staffers were able to preserve the hidden cache of luggage as part of the museum’s permanent collection.
“There were many patients in these asylums who were probably not unlike friends you and I have now.”
Photographer Jon Crispin has long been drawn to the ghostly remains of abandoned psychiatric institutions. After learning of the Willard suitcases, Crispin sought the museum’s permission to document each case and its contents. Crispin’s photographs restore a bit of dignity to the individuals who spent their lives within Willard’s walls. Curiously, the identities of these patients are still concealed by the state of New York, denied even to living relatives. Each suitcase offers a glimpse into the life of a unique individual, living in an era when those with mental disorders and disabilities were not only stigmatized but also isolated from society.

CW: How did you come across this collection?

Jon Crispin: I’ve worked as a freelance photographer my whole life. In addition to doing work for clients, I’ve always kept my eye out for projects that interest me. In the ’80s, I came across some abandoned insane asylums in New York State, and thought, wow, I’d really like to get in these buildings and photograph them.So I applied for a grant from the New York State Council on the Arts, got it, and spent a couple of years photographing the interiors and exteriors of these buildings. When the psychiatric programs moved out and shut things down, they basically just closed the doors and walked away. They left all kinds of amazing objects inside these buildings, including patient records in leather-bound volumes.

In the mid-’90s, I heard that at Willard—one of the asylums in which I spent a lot of time photographing—the employees had saved all the patient suitcases that belonged to people who came to Willard and died there. Starting around 1910, they never threw them out.
“I don’t really care if they were psychotic; I care that this woman did beautiful needlework.”
 
Clarissa's suitcase.
Clarissa’s suitcase.

CW: Do you think the patients had access to their suitcases after they arrived?

Crispin: There were many levels of mental illness in these places. Some people were in really bad shape, and sometimes had to be restrained, completely unable to function in any kind of society or environment. Those people probably did not have access to their suitcases.
“It wasn’t some hellhole where people were chained to the walls.”
But a large number of people at the asylum were ambulatory. They were out and about; they worked at the farm; they did artwork. Some of these places even had their own dance bands. The Utica State Hospital had a literary journal. There were many patients in these asylums who were probably not unlike friends you and I have now. The reasons why people were put in these facilities ranged from everything to serious psychoses and delusions to people who couldn’t get over the death of a parent or a spouse. Other people were institutionalized just because they were gay.
Freda's suitcase.
Freda’s suitcase.
 
Anna's suitcase.
Anna’s suitcase.

CW: Can each suitcase be traced to an individual patient?

Crispin: I have access to all the names, and New York State has the medical records for anyone admitted to these hospitals since the 1850s, so their histories are well-documented. I would like to use their full names in the photographs, but because of the Health Insurance Portability and Accountability Act (HIPAA), the laws about medical records and privacy, there’s some question as to whether or not I could be vulnerable to a lawsuit by the state.
Anna's suitcase contained an inventory of her glamorous clothing.
Anna’s suitcase contained an inventory of her glamorous clothing.
 
Here’s a weird story: When I do the shooting, my digital photographs are labeled with what’s called IPTC information. It’s all the camera metadata stored with each photo, and you can add whatever you want. I typically add my copyright information, and also the names of the Willard patients for my own records. But when I upload photos to my blog, I strip that out.
For one person’s suitcase, I forgot to delete their name. Two days later, I got a call from someone who’s desperate, saying, “Do you have the objects of —?” and she gave the name of the person. And she said, “That is my grandmother. We didn’t know anything about her.” She had Googled her grandmother’s name and came across the Willard suitcases on my site. But even in this situation, the woman had to prove to the state that she was not only the granddaughter of this person, but that she was legally the recipient of her estate. So, in other words, if the grandmother had willed her estate to the other side of the family, this woman would not have been able to get access to her things.
One of Eleanor's five storage containers.
One of Eleanor’s five storage containers.
 
I’m still trying to figure out how I can name these people, because I think it dehumanizes them even more not to. People who’ve been in mental institutions themselves have said, “Your project is very moving to me, but I’m very disappointed that you have to obscure names.” I think the stigma of mental illness has evolved from something shameful to something that’s much more medical and much more accepted. It just happens to people. But I’ve been very careful at this point in obscuring names, because there are many documents within the cases with names on them. I’m not showing their medical records; I’m only talking about the fact that they lived at Willard.

CW: Why weren’t these suitcases returned to family members when these people died?

Crispin: They tried, and again, the issue had to do with HIPAA laws. Contacting people with the information that their suitcases were in possession of the state was complicated by HIPAA. But the other problem was that a good number of these people were basically abandoned by their families, and their relatives showed very little interest in receiving their things after they died.
A detail of Eleanor's sewing supplies.
A detailed view of Eleanor’s sewing supplies.

CW: Was there any single suitcase that stuck with you?

Crispin: One of the last cases I shot was from a guy named Frank who was in the military. His story was particularly sad. He was a black man, and I later found out he was gay. He was eating in a diner and felt that the waiter or waitress disrespected him, and he just went nuts. He completely melted down, smashed some plates, and got arrested. His objects were particularly touching because he had a lot of photo booth pictures of himself and his friends. Frank looks very dapper, and there are all these beautiful women from the ’30s and ’40s in his little photo booth pictures. That really affected me.
Frank's suitcase included much military-related ephemera.
Frank’s suitcase included much military-related ephemera.
 
Dmytre’s suitcase is another that I really like, it’s the last case I did. Dmytre was very moving. He was Ukrainian and clearly brilliant. He had notebooks filled with drawings of sine waves and mathematical things like that. There’s a wedding picture of Dmytre and his wife, and she’s holding a bouquet of fake flowers, which were also in the case.
Dmytre was interesting because he got arrested by the Secret Service because he went to Washington, D.C. and said that he was actually married to President Truman’s daughter, Margaret Truman. And what’s great is there’s a little Washington monument thermometer in the case, so clearly he bought a little tchotchke on his trip to D.C. and then later got arrested for saying that he was Margaret Truman’s husband.
Frank's suitcase.
Some of the objects in Frank’s suitcase.
 
Obviously, some of the cases were a lot more mundane than others. There was one that had syringes in it that were so beautiful and old, and small drug packets with pills still in them. There were combs, books, bibles, clocks, and an incredible Westclox Big Ben alarm clock in its original box that’s unbelievably pristine.
There was lots of expensive stuff, like perfume bottles from Paris that were worth tons of money. People wonder, how is it that a woman who’s committed to Willard has a bottle of perfume, which even at the time was super expensive? Mental illness doesn’t target any one particular group of people; it takes all kinds.
Dmytre's suitcase contained his wedding photo and the silk flowers carried by his wife.
Dmytre’s suitcase contained his wedding photo and the flowers carried by his wife.

CW: Did stories often emerge from the objects you found inside each case?

Crispin: You could tell a lot about a person by what was in their case. One of the most touching letters I read was written to a woman who had been in another asylum and then released and finally sent to Willard. There was a letter from her sister, saying, “You could come back to Erie, but I don’t want you living in the YMCA because they’re still really upset with you for trying to stab that girl.” That one letter tells you a ton about what this woman’s life was like.

Souvenirs and scientific notes found in Dmytre’s suitcase.
 
But every case was different; I was constantly blown away. It was very important to me not to carelessly rifle through these things and forget that they were somebody’s personal belongings. And I really have a lot of respect for these people as well as the nurses and doctors who worked at the facility. I came away from all of this and the asylum work I did in the ’80s thinking that the state was actually trying to help people. It wasn’t some hellhole where people were chained to the walls. They tried to help, and I think it’s important to keep that in mind. While I was reverent, I tried not to be overly serious. I actually laughed a lot. If you’re ever around people in psych centers or even psychiatrists and nurses, a lot of their experiences are funny. Some of the items were amusing, but some made your heart ache, and others made you go, holy shit, what is this about? I was constantly affected by the items, and that’s my goal with photographs.

Wednesday, March 20, 2013

What's hiding in your attic?

Yes I know it’s been ages. I do my best but life is very full and very exciting. It's those 'dares' you see! No more! Today I'll do a little 'sharing' instead. I’ve discovered a great store on Etsy – Papa’s Vintage Photo Box. Jane uses photographs taken by her Papa in the 50s and early 60s as the basis for her artworks. She enhances the old images, sometimes adding new graphics, sometimes adding color, but never taking away from the atmosphere of her Papa’s original vintage photos. You can take a nostalgic journey through time and place as you wander through her store with more images waiting to be uploaded.
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I know many of you are heading into spring in your part of the world; here we’re nearly in autumn. As the first chilly evenings set in I find myself thinking of hibernation, cosiness and comfort. So, in the absence of an open fireplace of my own (airconditioning just doesn’t have the ambience does it) this little gif appealed.
 
And for some other soothing sounds (maybe for snuggling up in bed) here are a couple of videos with sound.
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Thursday, February 7, 2013

Dare 3: dare to be the person you dream of being

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Okay, first off, yes I had a birthday last week, and it was so lovely that I've decided to keep the celebration going for the rest of the year! Friends have been warned to have cake ready. Pretty good idea eh...we'll see how it goes.... Birthdays remind me that time is passing, and I'd better get my butt into gear if I want to accomplish certain things and be the person I wish to be.
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Licence Plate Clock by Platesttrends
(I have to be honest; I'm skipping some sections of the book we've been following - those sections that cover not procrastinating, those that cover career goals. Being the person you dream of being seems more important to me than achieving 'things'.)

When thinking of qualities I'd like to display, I've always found it useful to ask myself questions like, 'How will I be remembered?'.
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Clock Corset from VW Corsets
So here are a few of the qualities I'd like to develop or enhance -  you'll know yourself what qualities you desire.
  • Be able to let go of long held perceptions of myself and gain the freedom to try more new things every day.
  • Become more patient and more forgiving of myself (this is a difficult one for many of us) and others.
  • Not be afraid to share my laughter and positive vibes with the world without worrying about other's perceptions.
  • Be eager to experience new things, making life sparkle with unanticipated experiences.
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Assemblage Clock by The Urban Recyclery
 
Sometimes I need gentle reminders to keep me on track and birthdays are the perfect time to reflect.

Thursday, January 24, 2013

Dare 2: dare you to learn something new every day

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Okay, here's the speel from the second part of Kogan's book of dares for ecstatic living....Everytime you learn something, you rejuvenate yourself and add another dimension to your life. Don’t worry about how what you learn fits into your life; if something interests you, learn about it, invest some time in it, and color your life with what you learn from it. Learning is not just an occasional activity but a way of life, an attitude that keeps our eyes, ears, brains, and heart open to as many new experiences and ideas as possible.  Here are some of Kogan’s suggestions (am sure you can add plenty to the list).
  • Read one magazine or newspaper article every day from sections that you usually skip.
  • Sign up for a daily learning email. For example, check out www.wordsmith.org, where you can sign up to get a daily email with a new word and its definition.
  • Take a different way home and check out new and unfamiliar places along the way.
  • Whip up a recipe you've never tried to cook before.
  • Learn a skill you've always wished you had...plenty of suggestions here!
Now the pics with this post give a clue to what I'm trying to learn...yes the guitar...nothing fancy, just the basic chords.  I think tho that I have a mental block about 'practise' that goes back to piano lessons in childhood. The guitar sits on a chair and seems to taunt me as I walk past 'practise! practise! you'll never learn unless you practise for at least an hour every day' and of course that all seems too hard so I don't do it.  So, here I am after two weeks and I can only play two chords if I'm looking at the instruction sheet. Never mind, suppose as long as I keep at it, by the end of the year I'll have to have progressed won't I?

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Wednesday, January 9, 2013

Dare 1: dare you to do something fun every day

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Sometimes I’m completely devoid of inspiration for blog posts; so I put them off and off. Well I picked up a fun book at the library by Natasha Kogan titled ‘The Daring Female’s Guide to Ecstatic Living’ and thought ‘if I’m enjoying these ‘dares’, maybe blog readers will too’. Today’s post starts a series of these dares. Let me know what you think and whether or not you’ve taken any of them up.  Of course they don’t only apply to females…there’s no reason why guys wouldn’t find them useful as well.
 
The first dare -
Dare 1: Dare to find what makes you ecstatic, and do it for at least ten minutes a day
It doesn’t matter what you choose to do with your ecstatic moments, as long as it’s something you absolutely love and enjoy.  Here are some of Kogan’s suggestions (am sure you can add plenty to the list).
  • Read your favourite book
  • Sing along to your favourite music
  • Take a bubble bath
  • Sip a perfect latte
  • Watch part of your all-time favourite movie.
  • Play silly with your children/grandchildren/friends children
  • Cook your favourite recipe
  • Meditate
  • Spend time with someone you love
  • Call your best friend
  • Stand on your head
  • Practice your piano/guitar/violin
  • Dance around your house
She adds plenty of other ideas but you get the drift. It’s so personal isn’t it. Reading this chapter reinforces for me how lucky I am – I confess that I do a number of nice things most days. I even have an 'emergency list' of things to do if I'm feeling low. These include sitting out in the garden, just sitting and observing, listing; ringing particular friends; going to the library; doing arty stuff; meditating. How about you?

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Apparently the Pantone Color of the Year is Emerald so I've gathered a few interestingitems in this color (or close) for you to check out above. Go visit the stores for more inspiration 1. bowling ball fountain from Bee Jay Kay 2. RW2 Gallery (it's a shower curtain!) 3.  Merle Pace Arts photomontage 4.mask ceramic wall hanging by  Double Fox Studio
 
 

Monday, December 24, 2012

Happy Holidays!

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Like my new earrings darlings? Obviously I was very good this year; how good have you been?

And of course that's hail outside the window not snow; after all it's the middle of summer here and storm season!

My wish for you for Christmas is that you enjoy this time as a child does - with wonder and an open heart.

Thank you for making my year lovelier through your support.

Wednesday, December 12, 2012

It's a wrap!

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Hah! There’s no way I’d be able to do this! Maybe it’s the undergarments that help, or Mr Drapo's huge hands! I can’t even master a sari - purchased one recently and there was no way I could 1. get it to look right, and 2. feel confident that it wasn’t going to fall off at an inopportune time! Stapling could help...or maybe sewing myself into it. The closest garment I can find that seems like it would work, is the 'infinity' dress. This is a simple dress that can worn a multitude of ways. Etsy has a number of sellers selling this type of garment - see a few below. And the red, black and white dress was found on the Instructables website with really clear instructions to make your own. Safer than a sari I'd say. Photobucket
Top: animated gif from photographer Jamie Beck and visual designer Kevin Burg. Red Dress by Orchidea, Peach Dress from mMiNiArt, Red Black and White Dress Instructions here, Blue Dress from Minetik,  

Monday, November 26, 2012

Beloved! You! Yes You!

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Sunday, November 4, 2012

Russian Blue Roses

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1. Silk dress from Mrs Pomeranz 2. Rabbit plate from Dayanum Factory 3. Animated gif from Szomorú Vasárnap at Imgfav 4. Photograph of Saint Petersburgh by Rivulet Photography 5. Throw from Yaga 6.Custom made shoes from Anton Nizhnick 7. Music Clip from Chinawoman 8. Felt bag from Krukru Studio 9. Nautilus Pastel from PastelAnna

Saturday, October 13, 2012

Regrets and old tin photos

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Yes, it is a strange combo - a post about the regrets of the dying married with contemporary tintypes but for some reason I feel they go well together.  Maybe it's the nostalgia that old tin photos evoke. There's more information towards the end of the post about the art project that's producing contemporary tin art works. The list of 'regrets' comes from the book 'The Top 5 regrets of the Dying' by palliative care nurse Bronnie Ware.
1. I wish I'd had the courage to live a life true to myself, not the life others expected of me
This was the most common regret of all. When people realise that their life is almost over and look back clearly on it, it is easy to see how many dreams have gone unfulfilled. Most people had not honoured even a half of their dreams and had to die knowing that it was due to choices they had made, or not made.
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2. I wish I didn't work so hard
This came from every male patient that I nursed. They missed their children's youth and their partner's companionship. Women also spoke of this regret. But as most were from an older generation, many of the female patients had not been breadwinners. All of the men I nursed deeply regretted spending so much of their lives on the treadmill of a work existence.
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3. I wish I'd had the courage to express my feelings

Many people suppressed their feelings in order to keep peace with others. As a result, they settled for a mediocre existence and never became who they were truly capable of becoming. Many developed illnesses relating to the bitterness and resentment they carried as a result.
 
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4. I wish I had stayed in touch with my friends and family
Often they would not truly realise the full benefits of old friends and family members until their dying weeks and it was not always possible to track them down. Many had become so caught up in their own lives that they had let golden friendships slip by over the years. There were many deep regrets about not giving friendships the time and effort that they deserved. Everyone misses their friends when they are dying.
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5. I wish that I had let myself be happier
This is a surprisingly common one. Many did not realise until the end that happiness is a choice. They had stayed stuck in old patterns and habits. The so-called 'comfort' of familiarity overflowed into their emotions, as well as their physical lives. Fear of change had them pretending to others, and to their selves, that they were content. When deep within, they longed to laugh properly and have silliness in their life again.
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Well I’m used to seeing old tintypes but I had no idea that some photographers were resurrecting the technique. I came across the work of Meghann Mary Gilligan of the Tin Gypsy Project on Etsy. Meghann rescued and rehabilitated the a 1961 vintage travel trailer and retrofitted the ‘Tin Gypsy’ as a mobile darkroom, specially designed for the practice of antique photographic techniques. Meghann says, I am most interested in the salt printing and wet-plate collodion processes. I make my own photographic emulsions from scratch and all of my prints and tintype creations are handmade and one of a kind.
 
I find my inspiration from the historical origins of photography and its earliest practitioners, who were equal parts mad scientist, adventurer and artist. Working with large- format cameras that are 60-90 years old and using antiquarian photographic processes is an incredibly enjoyable way to make images. I love moving the knobs and bellows on the camera to focus, pouring the emulsion on the aluminium plates, putting salt prints out in the sunshine to develop and, most especially, finding new creations to craft from salt prints and tintypes. Visit the Tin Gypsy Project Store to purchase one of these unique works of art and follow the adventures, travels, and creative experiments of the Tin Gypsy Project on a blog here and on Facebook here.
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